The journey begins – in Nina’s footsteps

“If, for a thousand pounds, something was offered with magic in it enough to last a lifetime, there are people who would merely say: “A thousand pounds! That is a lot of money!” before turning sanely away. But there are others who would agonize after the magic thing, even to the point of jeopardizing their worldly security for it. Mad people, those!

“I am one of them!”

So begins Nina Murdoch’s book ‘She travelled Alone in Spain’ and it would appear we are very similar.

“Have you ever announced, suddenly and impecuniously, that you are going to Spain?

‘”Spain!” cry your friends. And again: “Spain!” for all the world as if you contemplated tripping to the moon … Only the nicely mad … could have understood how Spain was cajoling me across the seas …”

Like Nina, I have done that. Unlike Nina, a trip to Spain these days is not unusual. Certainly it is not unusual for a woman to travel alone in Spain as Nina did in the early 1930s but Nina understood why Isabel of Aragon pawned “her jewels that Columbus might sail away in a caravel on his first voyage of discovery.

Nina left the safety of British Gibraltar for Spain by train in the spring. I was already in Spain when I followed her train journey from Algeciras to Ronda in autumn. Nina shared her compartment with two Spanish men, one in a Cordoba hat. They were surprised at seeing a woman travelling alone in Spain. The serious man in the Cordoba hat stared at her for most of the journey, the other, a jolly short fellow peppered her with questions. Her Spanish, like mine, was not good, however the two found they could converse in French, then the jolly short fellow would translate into Spanish.

The men thought Nina was English.  She explained she was from Australia, which she describe “as the larges island in the world, lying in the Pacific and belonging to Britain” (nothing has changed). The men apparently broke into glad smiles and decided that it must be the country they knew as Oceania.  They were, by all accounts, shocked that Nina had travelled across the world unescorted. Especially a woman wearing a hat, which proclaims her belonging to the middle class. 

I had no such experience on the train. It was sleek and modern, not a lovely old compartment with a door that opened directly onto the platform. No one sat with me, no one spoke with me.  The conductor came through, shouting at someone further down the carriage telling him to get off the train. Then coming into the final section where sat. Again he shouted in Spanish. This part of the compartment turned out was mainly full of American tourists. The cranky conductor shouted again at us. We had no idea what he was saying. The as the train pulled up at the station, he started grabbing suitcases, shouting, saying he was going to throw the suitcases off.  Mine was one. An American behind me jumped up to grab his suitcase from the conductor, I followed to see if mine was indeed, in danger.  It turns out the cranky conductor didn’t like where we had put our suitcases out of the way and wanted them up the top on the overhead shelves.  Rather than see our suitcases thrown off, we did as he said.  He then stormed into the cranky conductor’s compartment at the end of the train and slammed the door.

As we travelled through the country-side, I could see the things Nina wrote about. The orchards, the olive groves, the River Guadalevin. The river was not flowing as wildly as Nina described, perhaps because it was autumn, perhaps because of dams and weirs put in place since then. Either way, there were parts that were just dry river beds. I doubt whether Nina saw the proliferation of Eucalyptus which was only introduced into Spain post-WWII. I suspect being a bit of a bush poet, Nina would have loved to have seen the eucalyptus.

The train stopped at some very picturesque villages along the way. All of which I would loved to have gotten off the train to explore. Even the stations themselves, were quite beautiful, with lovely old Spanish architecture and planted gardens. At last we arrived in Ronda. I pulled my bag from the overhead and off the train I jumped. In Spain, the train stations are usually out of the town, but in Ronda it was actually in the town. I walked to my accommodation, I knew it was near where Nina stayed, but as she didn’t name the hotel, I got as close to it as I possibly could. Very close to the Puente Nuevo, the new bridge. It’s actually a very, very old bridge. I knew Nina could hear the water from the River Taja and the waterfalls into it from the gorge Ronda is build upon. The hotels around here are very expensive in centuries old buildings. I walked there after I dropped my bags.

Ronda is easily the most beautiful town I have ever seen. Both in the natural beauty of the surrounding views and the town itself. It was after lunch but I could not stop walking around. Through the hanging gardens, down to the gorge, up over the bridge and then another. I needed something to eat. Nina had lamented the fact that Ronda was barely mentioned in any tour guides. She complains that even Baedeker, the guidebook of the day, rarely mentions Ronda. That much has changed. The town was pulsating with tourists and tourist coaches as I walked around. The restaurants are over-priced and the souvenir shops virtually leap out at you. I bought a bocadillo – a Spanish sandwich (read sandwich on steroids) and found a quiet park. I sat on an old stone wall, looking out at the view and smiled. I bet that is what Nina did too.

My friend Nina … and North Africa

There is a small biography on Nina Murdoch on Wikipedia and in the Australian Dictionary of Biography. It is the standard biography and covers facts such as where Nina was born, North Carlton; where Nina grew up – Woodburn in Northern NSW, not far from where my family live; who Nina married journalist Adams McCay; and, where she worked, the Sydney Sun. Nina was one of the first female reporters to cover Senate debates.

There are things you find out about Nina while reading her book She Travelled Alone in Spain. Nina likes reading the rules on the back of hotel room doors. I have a vague memory of the days when hotels had rules on the back of the room door. Pertinent things like check out time. I have started checking out the back of my hotel room doors. There usually tends to be just the information in case of fire. The doors Nina read back in 1934-35 had rules such as ‘no spitting’ and ‘women are not allowed male visitors in their room’. Rules that obviously hark back to a different time in a very different country to what Nina was used to.

Nina also like walking in the rain. She believed the Spanish didn’t like the rain so she enjoyed being out in it. I often said on the Camino that it doesn’t rain on me. Largely – and until today – the truth. Even on the Camino I never had heavy rain. Small showers, a bit of drizzle and three hail showers in one day but apart from that – it doesn’t really rain on me. Or didn’t. Until this morning.

Nina was described as ‘an independent woman’ who travelled alone in many countries. I don’t think Nina travelled to Morocco but I wanted to, so I booked a day-trip to Tangier. I had an early pick up point about ten minutes away from where I was staying. As the hostal door closed behind me the sky opened up and it poured down. With no raincoat or umbrella, I rain through the rain in the dark. Trying my best to avoid puddles, I usually ended up ankle deep in them. Maybe because there were so many puddles. By the time I reached the pick up point I was soaked through. Luckily my day pack proved to be water resistant and hence I had a dry back. The pick up point was undercover. As I stopped to wring out my scarf, the rain stopped, the sky cleared and it was over. I waited for the mini-bus and again watched the hundreds and hundreds of Spaniards cross the border into Gibraltar to work. Only five minutes, late the bus turned up and I met my nine other travel companions for the day. It would be a forty minute drive to Tarifa and then a short 35 minutes ferry ride across the straight of Gibraltar to the city of Tangier.

I went to Morocco in 1987. Back then it was so different from any other international place I had travelled in – which up until I took that particular ferry ride thirty years ago – included Bali, London, Paris and Spain. My companion and I crossed the Gibraltar Straight and spent no time in Tangier. The guidebook of the day warned it was full of hustlers, scammers and thieves. Instead, along with my travel companion, two Swiss, a French Canadian and another young Aussie guy from the ‘Gong’, we jumped into a Mercedes driven by two Moroccans with a boot load of stolen tyres and car wheels. We travelled on each other’s laps with back packs piled on top of us down to a little beach town further away from Tangier.

Memories of that first visit, thirty years ago flooded back. We were taken down into Portuguese pirate caves by a couple of fishermen. We came out about half way down a cliff with a clear view of the Atlantic Ocean. Afterwards, the fishermen took us back to the top of the cliff and cooked freshly caught crabs over an open fire. They used rocks to break open the legs and pass us the freshly cooked crab. I think we gave them the equivalent of two Australian dollars. It is still one of the best meals I have ever eaten. I remembered the Square of the Dead in Marrakech, walking around at night, seeing snake charmers, mongeese, belly dancers and drinking mint tea. I remembered my companion being offered 25 camels for me as we strolled through Essouira, a town made famous by Jimmy Hendrix. I wondered if I had held my value, if it had gone up like age and weight, or down ……

Today I visited Tangier properly an on an organised tour. Something I rarely do, I prefer to travel outside formal tour groups. As soon as our group were sat down for the ‘carpet talk’ I knew why. It’s the places they take you to so that you can buy goods from their preferred traders that I can’t stand. Next it was a herb and spice shop. One of the other tourists, a guy from Derby said to me ‘next up, its the time share’. That made me laugh. Despite the shops it was a pleasant tour, in the rain. We stood at the point on the shore where that Atlantic Ocean meets the Mediterranean Sea. We went down into the cave of Hercules near this same point. Apparently the ancient Greeks believe this is the spot where Hercules ripped apart Europe and Africa. I wonder what Nina would have made of Africa. I suspect she would have liked it.

Friends asked me about Nina’s journey before I left Australia. Questions such as, how did she get to Spain, how did she travel around, how long did she take travelling? Some of these questions I can answer along my journey, some I may not be able to. Of one thing I am certain, it would have been a lot slower in the early 1930s than it will take me in 2017. Tomorrow, I begin my journey following in Nina’s footsteps, where she began hers. On the train from Gibraltar to Ronda.

If you would like your very own copy of She Travelled Alone in Spain, there are two copies available from Amazon.  She travelled alone in Spain

 

Monkey madness – not bitten still shy

The pilot announced that we were beginning our descent into Gibraltar and I could feel my excitement growing. This place has been on my bucket list for so long and I have always wanted to land on a runway where they close the road to allow the planes to land. I craned my neck to see out of the window from my aisle seat as we touched down. I wanted to see what the main road into Gibraltar looked liked when it was closed. I could not see the rock or anything else of Gibraltar at this stage but as soon as we touched down the engines were thrown into reverse so as not to overshoot this very short runway. The stairs were brought up to the front and rear doors. I love getting on and off planes from the tarmac and as I was in the middle of the plane I was one of the last off. I stood at the top of the stairs and stared at the rock. I knew it was big but wow! I had seen the rock years ago from the Strait of Gibraltar when I travelled to Morocco by ferry but that was such a dim memory now and this time it was really in my face. I breathed in the humid air and walked down the stairs, smiling broadly, hair promptly going into frizz mode. I stopped on the tarmac to take a quick picture of the rock.My hostel was on the Spanish side of the border so I had to walk through passport control. It was a breeze as the person on duty waved me through saying “bale, bale” – ok, ok without barely looking up. After settling in to the hostel, I went out to explore the town of La Linea de Conception, I walked by the seaside, past the beaches, past the marina and again towards the rock before heading into the old part of town to eat real tapas. Then in traditional Spanish style I went home for my afternoon siesta.

I ventured out again at about 6:30, the Spaniards were all taking their afternoon stroll up and down the main street in their Sunday finest. Many were sitting at cafes having coffee and cake. I realised at 6:30 it was afternoon tea for them. Dinner would not begin in earnest until after 9:00 or 10:00pm. As they walked and as they sat, they checked everyone out calling to friends and family. The teenagers gathered in the town square before splitting up and heading to quiet street corners in couples at dusk.  

The old part of town in La Linea is very pretty, but it is a tired old town. Scars from the Global Financial Crisis are everywhere outside of the main three to four streets. Unfinished high-rises, blocks of empty land filled with weeds and rubbish, faded street signs and faded for sale signs are everywhere. There are signs of what was once expected to be vibrancy and growth that just withered on the GFC vine.

This morning I was awake early and decided to take another walk by the seaside to see the rock at dawn. It was still dark when I left the hostel at 7:30am. There were lots of people out walking dogs and making their way to work. As I approached the border into Gibraltar I could see hundreds of Spaniards walking, riding and scootering over to the British town to work for the day. I though about going in and having an English breakfast but remembered I didn’t have my passport with me so I would go over a bit later. I settled for a Spanish cafe con leche y tostado before topping up my Spanish SIM card.

When I went over at about 10:00am it was the same deal through passport control. Waved through no stamp in my passport. I could have had that English Breakfast. I walked along Sir Winston Churchill Avenue hoping that a plane would land and I would have to wait at the boom gates. No such luck, but it is fun to cross a wide but short runway.

Walking through the ancient ramparts into Gibraltar was like walking into a theme park. Except there are no rides and mainly old people. Old, overly tanned people. There were gift and souvenir shops but also a multitude of duty free alcohol, cigarette and perfume shops. The place was crowded and thumping with an energy very different from La Linea. Again, the top of the rock was shrouded in a huge blue, grey crowd that looked as if it would rain down on all of us in any given second. I caught the cable car up to the top. Once inside I realised it wasn’t only monkeys I didn’t like, I don’t actually like steep cable cars that much either. But it was preferable to the steep walk. We crowded in and made our way up as the cable car was blown around a bit by the winds. Once up, I alighted to the sight of some monkeys in the distance. Well, in fact they are not monkeys but rather macaque apes. Either way, I do not like monkeys or apes. Too vicious and too smart for more liking. You think I would be used to that having worked in politics.

I walked onto a viewing platform and let and a yelp when I was surprised by a monkey I had not seen. I caught it out of the corner of my eye at the last minute. Other tourist laughed. My friend Dave told me before I left Australia to “just ignore the monkeys and you’ll be fine”. That was one thing I was not going to do. I kept my eye on this one, watching its face I noticed it eyes focus on something and its leg muscles tense. I hurried quickly out of its way as it suddenly lunged and ran at another tourist. She moved faster than me. I took a quick visit to the cafe/souvenir shop to check out the fridge magnets. As I walked out the door and down the stairs to another viewing platform a monkey ran at me. I ran as fast as I could loudly ooh, ooh, ohhing. The monkey changed tack and went up the stairs to the shop. Sitting in front of the door, it proceeded to open the door and head inside. A little English boy was delighted. Not so later when another monkey ran at him.  

Up on the rock the mist and cloud swirled around me. The light through the cloud on the Mediterranean glinted back through the fog. The stones and rocks were wet from the mist yet you could still hear the see crashing on the rocks 500 metres below. I had taken enough photos and been close enough to my fears to know it was time to go back down.

I was first in line at the cable car so got to stand at the front, facing down with the open window. Other tourists were slowly making their way in and the driver was about to close the door when all of a sudden a monkey jumped on the front of the car at the open window and scared me so much I screamed and started running to the back of the car, pushing the elderly French tourists out of my way. “Mon Dieu!”, they cried. I don’t know if they were calling to God because of the monkey or because of me barging past. The monkey stopped at the window, bared its teeth, seemed to smile and then went off in the other direction from which it came. Not before another tourist yelled to the driver “close the door”. Useless given the window was open. 

I made it down safely, not bitten but still very shy (read shit-scared) of monkeys. All there was to do now was to take a selfie as I crossed over the run way back into Spain.

London calling

I arrived in London thinking it, like Melbourne, would be a disappointment. After 36 hours of travel from South Gippsland, I was tired. It was my 53rd birthday. Really. What was I doing? I found my hostel easily enough. When I checked in, the two young guys at reception – one an Aussie the other a kiwi said “this is a youth hostel, mainly for 18-40 year olds”. Ooooo-kaaaay. “This is just the verbal disclaimer. A lot of drinking happens here. It’s not a fancy hotel. It may get noisy.” I replied I was fine with that, thinking ‘just give me the key so I can have a bloody shower’. I assured them I would be fine in this environment. After all the dorms large and small I had slept in earlier this year. I was more than used to dorm life.

The first night I went to a local pub they had recommended. Then another. At both places I tried talking to people and making friends – just so the birthday didn’t feel too lonely. It did – but as I was tired I was back at the ‘youth’ hostel 7:30pm. I popped a pill, put my earplugs in, my eye mask on and was asleep in no time. I barely noticed the already sleeping woman in the other bottom bunk.

The next morning, two of my roomies were up early. Six am to be precise. They took two full hours to get ready for their day. It was constant in and out of the room, up and down and up and down again on the bunk above me. Thankfully they took the task of drying their hair right outside the bedroom door and not in the room. I tried to ignore the noise and keep sleeping but I was faking it. So I said hello to them before they left. They were two Korean girls on a European vacation. The were both very sweet and told me I could get breakfast downstairs in the kitchen and if I wanted privacy there were showers upstairs. The shower in the room was a little less private but I had used it the evening before when I was in the room alone and it was fantastic. After they left, the sleeping body from the bed the night before stirred. An Irish woman who exclaimed “how long did it take those two to get ready?” We laughed and chatted. She was 63 and wasn’t given the verbal disclaimer from Sam and Dylan. Her staff member was a young Australian girl and when the Irish woman raised the issue of the fine print on the age limits, the Australian girl waved her hand in dismissal and said, “no worries, you’ll be fine”. Hmppfff – I thought to myself. 

I took a shower upstairs. The shower was bad. The water dribbled out. I think I have gotten more wet during a menopausal hot flush than I did in that shower. I cursed the whole hostel system, longed for a three to five star hotel room and got ready for the day ahead. I had planned to visit Hampton Court. Instead I found myself wandering the streets alone and miserable. I decided to go to the Portobello Road markets and had an ok time before ending up in Carnaby Street and Soho – with yet more aimless wandering. When I got back to the hostel, the room was empty. I took a shower in the room shower. It was fantastic. I washed my hair, which was impossible in the communal shower and enjoyed the luxury of time alone. Which was odd given I had spent almost the previous 24 hours cursing my alone-ness. After the shower I caught up on my facebook and emails. Before I left Australia an old acquaintance from my government days had said he could catch up on the Saturday. I had agreed but was hardly surprised when I had an email at the last minute telling me he was now unable to. Hardly surprised but very annoyed as I had been looking forward to catching up with a familiar face. Just then, Yana walked into the room and into my life.

Yana was the new roomie to replace the Irish woman. She was a pretty Russian from St Petersburg. I told her to use the room shower, not the communal and warned her that our other roomies woke very early and took ages to get ready. She would hear zippers being zipped and unzipped. Sprays of beauty products going on and on and on with lots of climbing up and down the bunks. I wished her a good night as I headed out and left her to shower in peace. 

Well, I hadn’t actually realised how annoyed I was about the broken date and how much it threw out my mojo. I walked up the street and needing to go to the bank went for my wallet. It wasn’t there. I searched my pockets, the pockets of my backpack, my pockets again, the pockets of my back pack again. Nothing. I raced back to the room. Yana was “chilliing” on her bed. The window open a breeze coming through. She tried to talk me down but it was not to be. I was sweating and angry. Trying to re-trace my steps. I went through the hostel. Asked Sam and Dylan if they had found it. Nothing. I went back up to the room. Thinking about the hassle of replacing my cards before I would fly out to Gibraltar on Sunday morning. I was about to give it all away when I said to Yana – “now I have lost my room key”. She counselled me “no you have not. You just had it”. I put my hand into the back pocket of my bag and pulled out my wallet”. I assured Yana I was not usually like this (no one tell her that I can be). She asked if something had happened to lose my usual composure. I thought about it and it was planning my day around an arrangement which was cancelled at the last minute. With my wallet and key found I ventured out but not before I received a message from Jan Caddy of my Camino asking to catch up the following day. A much better catch up than the one I had planned.

Out into the London night I went. I pressed play on my iTunes and London Burning by the Clash rang loudly in my ears. It was going to be a good night.

I had a funny and interesting night. I met an Australian couple from Mitchell a small town in outback Queensland – seven hours west of Brisbane I was told. This couple had spent six months travelling around Eastern Europe in a camper van. Their tales were more than I could ever imagine. I asked how many fights they had had. She said none – he said only a couple. It sounded like it was more bickering than anything. They had travelled through Albania, Romania and Bulgaria – just to name a few. It took me back to when I travelled in 1987 and was detained in Bulgaria. A story for another time. They told me about the bears they encountered one night in the forest. They could hear the bears howling to each other across the valley and he had one of his thongs stollen by a bear. I imagine a bear wearing one thong like a yobo on Australia Day. She had her hair done that day and it was the longest time they had spent apart in six months. Their stories were inspiring and funny. After saying goodnight I finally went and had the English curry I had been longing for.

After dinner, I stopped at another pub and met an English guy named Chris. For twenty minutes I was entertained by the funniest monologue on Australia that I have ever heard. “Australians. You all cling to the coast ‘cos there is nothing in the middle but snakes and spiders and big fucking lizards. Then you go into the oceans and get eaten by sharks or those weird octopuses that you ‘av. And the World Cup in Qatar. What is that about? I mean, I would be surprised if you Aussies even get into the World Cup. You guys can’t play football. You always want to grab the ball and run with it. You played Syria. What is that even about? You go to Qatar for the World Cup and you aren’t even gunna have a cold beer. We English will accept a warm beer from under the table but you Aussies can only have a truely cold beer. What ya gunna do like?” I laughed and laughed and laughed.  

I went home to find the two Korean girls packing as the next day they were leaving for Paris. They both were drinking a large can of Guinness each with a small pack of peanuts to share. One had to sit on her bag to close it. They told me they were scared about Paris as they would be subject to pick pockets and other evils. They thought they would be easy targets in Paris being Asian. I tried to assure them that they would be ok and that there are Asians in Paris. After a while I grew tired so popped in the ear plugs pulled down the eye mask and fell into sleep. I heard Yana come home but was too tired to wake and say hi.

The next morning at six, the girls got up. Again it was two hours of packing, zipping and unzipping, climbing up and down the bunks, drying their hair just outside the bedroom door, leaving the door ajar for a small bit of light, in consideration of us sleeping and not turning the full light on. More sprays were sprayed, loud whispers on final instructions, one more climb up and down the bunk and they were gone. Having tried to ignore and sleep through, once they closed the door for the final time Yana and I sat up in our beds and looked at each other … “those girls took so long”. When I told her about the packing the night before she laughed “you mean they had already packed?”

We took our time getting up, chatting and getting to know each other a little bit. We both made each other laugh as we continued to talk and made our plans for the day. Yana was off to Greenwich and I was off to the Tate Gallery in the morning and then to meet Jan from the Camino. I had the most amazing day. The Tate was wonderful with an amazing collection Turners and Constables and other British painters. An art lovers dream. After that I quickly popped by Buckingham Palace for a peak through the gate and the obligatory selfie. I was meeting Jan at 2:00 Jan under the clock at Waterloo. It was great seeing Jan again. We relived the Camino times, and caught up on our lives since then, our plans for the future and exchanged toenail horror stories post Camino. Jan won that one. 

On my return to the hostel, I briefly met one of our new roomies who left the room soon after I arrived. I had a great shower just before Yana rushed in to change as she was going to see Kinky Boots with her friends. We walked to the bus stop together. I wanted a selfie of us and could not find my phone before the bus arrived to whisk her off to Piccadilly. She told me we could have one when she gets home (I will look awful) or before I leave at 5:00am tomorrow (she will look awful). I think I know which one I would have chosen but alas it didn’t happen. I hope to hear from her again but my accent confused her to no end. She laughed when trying to distinguish my a’s from my e’s and i’s.

Next stop Gibraltar.

Melbourne – I gave it a whirl. It sent me back to Spain.

When I arrived back in Melbourne in late May I felt I had the world at my feet. I had walked the Camino, I could do anything.

The first few weeks were spent with friends in the country, recovering from jet lag and letting my feet heal. I walked most mornings around five kilometres along the rail trail where the trains once ran but has now been converted to a natural trail for bicyclists, walkers and horse riders. I walked the trail and through nature reserves. It made me feel like I was still walking the Camino – but without the backpack, sticks, boots nd friends.

During the day, when I wasn’t helping out with the lambing and the sheep, I would apply for jobs. Occasionally, I would get an interview which meant a three hour bus ride up into Melbourne.  I felt confident, I felt happy, I felt like I was on the edge of a new beginning. I made plans of places I wanted to go, things I wanted to see, places I wanted to eat at and suburbs where I wanted to live.

As the weeks turned into months and the job offers were not rolling in, I started to lose my Camino mojo. It was harder for me to conjure up memories and smile.  I would be pushed and shoved and I would push and shove myself onto trams and trains to meet with recruiters on a path that ended up going nowhere. Finally I landed a temporary role in the Department of Health and Human Services pulling together the department’s annual report. Oh what fun!

I had been couch surfing but it was now time to find my own space. As my job was only a month contract, then extended for another month, I could not get my own place to live. I was underemployed and homeless, relying on the generosity of friends and their beds. I found a place out on the edge of the city called “Breakfree”. Breakfree was once a hospital in Melbourne’s northern suburbs. It was a strange place with a strange mix of people. Chinese tourists bumped against international students. Holiday makers looking for clean, cheap accommodation miles outside of Melbourne shared the lift with junkies, alcoholics and people in “temporary” accommodation. This is where I lived for much of the time I was in Melbourne. It was a depressing place. More often than not, I could not tell if the sobs I heard were coming from the room next door or an echo of my own.

During the time I spent at the Breakfree, I got to know some of my fellow lodgers. I stayed away from the young guy with the face tattoo – of what looked to be a gummy bear – and the large plastic ankle bracelet. Like the rest of the lodgers he obviously needed a bit of luck however, I doubted he would be able to break free so easily.

Going back to work was not as difficult as I thought. I enjoyed the small team I was working with, the money was good and the nine to five came back easily. At first. Then the routine of passive aggressive behaviour, eye-rolling, finger pointing and office politics started in on me.  Mind you, I was doing most of the eye-rolling. What the hell was I doing?  After months of travelling and writing, I began to question if I could do office work again. This combined with my home life at Casa del desperatos was certainly not an ideal combination.  I was fortunate that my fabulous Melbourne friends kept me sane and propped me up emotionally and with dinners and respite from what had become my world.

I had enough money for some months rent in advance but no opportunity to be successful in the rental market with less than a 12 month contract.  One of the people I was working with mentioned perhaps I could be interested in filling for her for two months after my current contract finished.  I thought maybe, but then that would mean two more months at the hotel.  What should I do?  I started testing the waters, “So, I am thinking of going back to Spain ….” I would say. Melbourne friends at first then I moved on to my family – sisters and nieces. The reaction I got was largely positive especially when I explained my thinking.

My time in Melbourne was simply the working holiday component of my gap year.  I could now go back to Spain and finish it off.  What was my plan? Years ago, one sunny winter afternoon, I was strolling a market in Fortitude Valley in Brisbane.  I picked up an old book ‘She Travelled Alone in Spain’.  Flicking through the pages and reading the blurb had me interested. It was written in the early 1930s, published in 1935, just prior to the Spanish Civil War.  The book was written by Nina Murdoch (no relation) an Australian journalist and author who broke the conventional boundaries of the day and travelled overseas alone in Spain writing about her journey. I decided I would follow in Nina’s footsteps. Through her words seeing Spain as she did then – and through my words Spain as it is today. Before long, I found instead of saying “I’m thinking of going back to Spain” my words changed to “I’m going back to Spain”. Decision made. Tickets booked.  The next day I thought to myself “What am I doing????”. I am going back to Spain I told myself and I found myself smiling.

Now with my departure date approaching, I am getting nervous. People had asked me before starting the Camino if I was worried about doing it alone.  I wasn’t.  I knew the Camino was a busy path and that many people walked it alone.  I knew that I would meet people from all over the world. I knew I would find people to walk with and I would find people to avoid. Following in Nina’s footsteps will be different. It is not a worn pathway. I will not be walking but rather taking whatever transport Nina did, be it train, bus or donkey. I will be visiting cities in southern Spain.  Cites I have never visited but have longed to walk their ancient streets. The cities of Córdoba, Granada, Sevilla. The sound of these cities as I say them to myself brings music and romance to my ears. Yet I am fearful to tread alone – with only Nina for constant company.

If you would like to support me as I travel alone in Spain, please see my go fund me page at https://www.gofundme.com/the-seat-of-my-pants-book-2

For the price of a good book, $20, you will help me on my journey and get to read along as I look at Spain in the early 1930s and now.  You can also support me with words of encouragement and support on this blog or the seat of my pants facebook page. Every little bit helps.

Special shout-out to my amigos para siempre – the friends in Melbourne who loved, supported, fed and sheltered me – even if it meant one of their own children sharing their bed. Jenny and Rocky Vega-Meehan; George Wright and Luke Fittolani and Bella and Max Fittolani-Wright; Siobhan Barry; Leigh Abernethy; and, Meggs Meggs. Thank you one and all.